I was on a sort of a date with Shreya, the niece of my ex-English teacher.Though it would better be called a 'mute sidewalk by the pavement'. It was I who had asked her out tonight, but it was me now who resented my decision. Me and Shreya had been good-friends,but I could feel that proposing her a date tonight with me,I had crossed some invisible line.
"Why don't you talk Neel?", she asked disgustingly.
"Because, I don't feel like talking."
"Don't feel like talking? Do you have slugs in your intestine or what? Tonight we were supposed to go to NALBAN. You ditched the idea just for a friendly lonely walk down this depeopled field. And now you even refuse to talk. What's the matter?"
I remained silent. I did not want to discuss anything right at that moment with her.
"Neel",she grabbed my shirt, "Neel I want to know what's wrong."
I remained silent still.
"Neel, see it will spoil this evening. C'mon speak up", her voice showed irritation, "Neel see we're going nowhere....."
I halted. I turned around to face her. Then I burst out, "Who told you to come with me tonight? You could have gone your ways! I never forced you to come. You could have gone anywhere with that stupid Siddharth- to Nalban, Science City, just .... anywhere,bloody hell. Did I ever propose you as a boy-friend? So why did you turn up with me? Just go anywhere you like and don't keep on chattering in front of my ears."
"I could have gone out with Siddharth? Yes, obviously! I could, just as I have come out tonight with you. Both of you are mere friends to me... nothing more. I could have gone out with anyone..." And she marched away angrily.
I did not listen to anything she told. My mind was elsewhere. She reminded me of someone for whom once my heart-beat stopped, my pulse raced. RIYA MITRA- I could swear that she was an angel. She made me loose control over my senses.
But she was now as distant as a star of the Milky Way. Shreya was just a consolation so that I coul assure myself that life was afterall not totally arid. But my mind glided to that day- the day when it was my first encounter with her.
"Why don't you talk Neel?", she asked disgustingly.
"Because, I don't feel like talking."
"Don't feel like talking? Do you have slugs in your intestine or what? Tonight we were supposed to go to NALBAN. You ditched the idea just for a friendly lonely walk down this depeopled field. And now you even refuse to talk. What's the matter?"
I remained silent. I did not want to discuss anything right at that moment with her.
"Neel",she grabbed my shirt, "Neel I want to know what's wrong."
I remained silent still.
"Neel, see it will spoil this evening. C'mon speak up", her voice showed irritation, "Neel see we're going nowhere....."
I halted. I turned around to face her. Then I burst out, "Who told you to come with me tonight? You could have gone your ways! I never forced you to come. You could have gone anywhere with that stupid Siddharth- to Nalban, Science City, just .... anywhere,bloody hell. Did I ever propose you as a boy-friend? So why did you turn up with me? Just go anywhere you like and don't keep on chattering in front of my ears."
"I could have gone out with Siddharth? Yes, obviously! I could, just as I have come out tonight with you. Both of you are mere friends to me... nothing more. I could have gone out with anyone..." And she marched away angrily.
I did not listen to anything she told. My mind was elsewhere. She reminded me of someone for whom once my heart-beat stopped, my pulse raced. RIYA MITRA- I could swear that she was an angel. She made me loose control over my senses.
But she was now as distant as a star of the Milky Way. Shreya was just a consolation so that I coul assure myself that life was afterall not totally arid. But my mind glided to that day- the day when it was my first encounter with her.
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